Trans and/or non-binary people! I has a question.
This probably doesn’t apply to your stuation a 100%, but maybe it still helps sorting things out a bit. Until I was about 20, I identified as binary trans. I knew my assigned gender didn’t fit, so I tried to get as far away from it as possible - to what I then believed to be the ‘opposite’ gender. It felt really really good for many years - pronouns, clothes, name and all. Until I realized it only felt good because it wasn’t the gender that didn’t fit. It didn’t feel right, it only felt less wrong. I realized I was non-binary all along, but it took me a while to get there. Like a pendulum starting at one end, swinging all the way to the other end, and finally coming to rest in the middle. I guess I needed this binary-trans phase to come to terms with my non binary identity.
But, you know, you may also be genderfluid :) Maybe female and non-binary are your genders.
Whatever this means, remember it’s okay to take your time to figure this out. You don’t have to know right away, getting to know yourself is a process that shouldn’t be rushed. All the best to you, take care :3